2024

It's 2024!  A lot has happened since the last time I was here. First of all, the family got bigger. It's now Mariah, Emma, Jenica and Richard Joseph. It's been a crazy last couple of years but by the grace of God we have gotten through it. Mariah is now 17(almost 18) and about to head to college (Sam Houston State University), Emma is 11 and after two years of doing homeschooling, has now decided to take the plunge and try going back to school, Jenica will be four in September (and still not fully potty trained!!) so she misses the mark to try and go to school but we're trying to get her in some kind of head start program, Juju is the only little one that gets to stay home with momma.

We have been traveling the world a bit... we have been able to go back to California and then also go to Tennessee, Kentucky and Canada! We were able to go visit Florida again as well and take some daytrips in Texas. It's been one heck of an adventure...

BUT down to business and the real reason why I've come on here. A few months ago I went and got my Pap smear done (routine check up)...my doctor was away on vacation and I assumed since there was no urgency to get the results that it would be all normal. Well..I guess it's normal for now but according to the test results they found some cell growth in my cervix. The doctor started asking me a few questions and decided she would want to send me to an OB to get further testing and to see if a repeat PAP should be done or if we should wait 6 months to get another test done. She sent off a referral and now I have to make an appointment. I've only told my husband and one super close friend and asked her to keep me in prayer. Not gonna lie, cancer came to mind but I tried to push it away until I talked to my husband and he suggested it. I'm trying to stay calm and not think about it but I've come to the conclusion that if this is God's will then I'm ready for whatever comes my way. Am I scared? Heck yeah!!! BUT I know I serve a God who heals so whether it be here or in heaven, my healing will come. I've been talking to my husband about the WHAT IFs and as hard as it's been having these conversations, I feel peace in knowing that God has me at the palm of His hand and things will be okay. So I've decided to document my testimony this way. Whatever comes my way.... As I go, this will all be to glorify His name. So...hold on and join me as I navigate in this journey. 

My babies, you won't know of any of this until I HAVE to let you know. You will probably be reading this after I pass away or maybe while I'm going through it but rest assured that mommy loves you and everything I'm doing is to not worry you and to keep things calm. If this is just a health scare then Glory be to God but if it's not then I will take it day by day and do the best possible to not get you worried and to see me live my life. 

The next step is to make an appointment with a specialist and I didn't get an answer from them today so I will try again tomorrow and we shall see what happens.

As I go...Christ is with me and He will not forsake me.

Love,

Mom 💜